When I’d started to think about an appropriate title for my first book I remembered that some months previous I’d started penning the lyrics for a song. I had this romantic notion that having worked in musical theatre for many years I could write a script about the possible ‘goings on’ backstage between members of the cast and crew (and before anyone gets the wrong idea this was all in my imagination of course, and not based on anything that actually occurred)
Briefly, the backstory to the song went something like this…an aging West End Headliner no longer finds himself wanted by producers for any of their latest shows. His partner of many years, a girl from the chorus line, who with his help had made it to principle, no longer saw him as useful…she too no longer wanted him.
He takes a job as the Stage Manager of a provincial theatre and finds himself attracted to another member of the staff, but it’s not clear to him if she feels the same way. As he doesn’t want to get rejected again he adopts a demeanor of disinterest in her, and even though he wants to reveal his feelings…he can’t.
And so he sings…
Dreams hide in the shadows, yet unspoken through fear,
As I dare not reveal them just in case she won’t hear.
So afraid of rejection and the pain of before, here concealed by the darkness
Will love pass by my door?
And then she looks at me, the demons disappear, I long to be
That special someone that she hopes to see,
And I pray she’ll free the other side.
I know if she were mine forever in my heart a light will shine
To show the way, tomorrow we’d define
If she opened up the other side of me.
But how do I tell her and just what should I say? She may not feel the same as I do.
Then she’ll think that I’m foolish, it may push her away,
Then my pitiful life would be through.
But then she smiles my way with eyes so full of love that I must stay
To be with her for more than just this day,
I just have to be the other side of me.
And when you look at me I hope you see the one you’ll love, and we
Will always be together endlessly,
And there can be another side.
Please say you’ll be right here to hold my hand and chase away this fear.
My every dream becoming crystal clear,
As you open up the other side...
I know that there’s another side…
Please God she frees the other side of me.
© Jamie Gray 2019